Turning 26. It’s a pretty big milestone for me, one that I had reservations and was somewhat apprehensive about for quite some time, almost to the point of dread actually. I felt like 25 was mid range and once you go past it, you are very close to 30, so having that 26th birthday (on the 3rd of August) just tips you past that point of being near 20.
But, then I realised that age is literally just a number, I’m physically and mentally absolutely no different to what I was the day before when I was 25. It is nothing but a number and it really doesn’t make much of a difference on your life, in fact, as it stands, I seem to be getting better with age. I feel like 2014 has been a huge year for me in terms of growing as a person, being more at ease with myself, accepting who I am and making positive changes to my life. I feel like I have matured immensely. I’ve definitely become more my own person, actually enjoying life and I think this can only get better as I get older, so rather than fearing that imaginary mental block that people put on birthdays, I’m embracing them and am actually excited to get older and see what life brings.
So far it’s been nothing but surprises, a lot were bad and quite a few were good, but what is important to me as I get older is how I learn to deal with things instead. I used to stress out about the littlest things, have anxiety about everything and plan everything right down to the last minute little detail, but now I’ve been a lot more lax about planning and worrying, going with the flow a little bit more and actually taking some steps back to enjoy what I’m doing rather than worry specifically about getting from A to B without a hiccup. I feel like this is something that only comes with age and the more I grow, the more I learn to take things in my stride. Yes bad things happen, but the way you think about them and handle them is the most important thing. You are the only person who can make you feel bad.
I didn’t understand this at first and used to think the world was out to get me, but I realised that the saying about holding the key to your own life is completely true. How you feel and the emotions you project are the direct result of the way you chose to handle that situation. Things can be a whole lot easier and since I’ve learned that just in this year alone, I now can’t wait to see how my 26’s, 27’s and 28’s turn out, I’m actually looking forward to turning 30, I think! Ha ha.
I just wanted to make this blog post as a bit of a reflection since Raindrops of Sapphire is a lot like my own online diary (even though it’s a fashion blog), it’s amazing to see just how much I have grown in the 4 years it’s been live, I can only say that every change has been positive and every future change will continue to be positive too, better photos, more structure, happy and cheerful posts, more of a classic style, it’s all part of me getting older and evolving as a person. I’ve included some really old photos of me at the bottom of this post too, as part of looking back and actually seeing the physical changes as well as the mental changes. Thank you for taking this journey with me every day and helping me grow. Lorna xx.